The beautiful conflagration

My seedlings are coming up, all looking indiscriminate and weed-like, but we shall see. Since reading the brilliant Richard Mabey’s  tribute Weeds, I  am  deeply sympathetic to weeds and try to find places where they can grow happily and where they  will not be mistaken for something edible or become rampantly invasive. An hour or so ago I  moved the pots out of a  fierce wind and watered everything, hoping the seedlings, weeds and all, survive.

 

Finishing off a  chapter and   fact-checking with  some trepidation, peering at  scribbled interview notes. Tomorrow a garden  worker is coming around to clear a drainage ditch for weekly irrigation water and I shall  give him a sturdy and  hopefully delicious meatloaf for  lunch. I’ve always wanted to experiment with a vegetarian lentil  meatloaf, but this may not be the occasion, since stewed lentils are not the happiest of discoveries for those expecting the taste of  red meat. So  lean beef or lamb mince it will be, and an Italian-style meatloaf with a good tomato passata. crumbled  sourdough  bread, handfuls of chopped parsley, onion, garlic,  fresh Portabello mushrooms,  Bacon or pancetta? Grated Parmesan? At what point does meatloaf stop being meatloaf and become an elaborate  terrine?

 

A forum poster mentioned the American writer and daredevil Jack London, who may or may not have been alcoholic (the difficulty of  projecting  contemporary social labels onto  historical contexts), and I came across a startling quotation from him, the nature of alcoholism from the inside

 

“I was carrying a beautiful alcoholic conflagration around with me. The thing fed on its own heat and flamed the fiercer. There was no time, in all my waking time, that I didn’t want a drink. I began to anticipate the completion of my daily thousand words by taking a drink when only five hundred words were written. It was not long until I prefaced the beginning of the thousand words with a drink.”

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7 comments to The beautiful conflagration

  1. Syd says:

    Jack London burned brightly and then his flame went out. Very sad.
    Your meat loaf sounds great. The garden here is doing well with all kinds of lettuce, collards, and over 100 strawberry plants that should produce something in the spring.

    • Mary LA says:

      Syd, the idea of all those strawberries is enthralling! And you will have collards and lettuce and all kinds of delicious homegrown produce. What do you do with the surplus? I freeze some and donate some to animal charity stalls for fundraising.

  2. That’s a perfect description of the progression of alcoholism… I bet there was much more to follow.

  3. Goddamn, that Jack London quote hits home.

  4. Go to see you back! I was missing you these past few days. The meatloaf sounds delish!

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