Scorched winds across Mpumalanga, runaway fires, blackened veld. The skyline an ominous heat haze. But tiny fronds of fresh growth on the combretum trees, the leadwoods. Thinking about the AA belief in a Higher Power of one’s own understanding and wishing that tolerance could be extended to others – especially in this province of Mpumalnga where the Suppression of Witchcraft Bill needs to be resisted. Such measures have traditionally been directed against women, outsiders, lesbians, troublesome adolescents, women perceived as sexual threats, those with healing energies, uncontained and unpredictable individuals, those defined as emotionally ill.
And on one of my forums a debate about a paedophile who molested mentally challenged children while a member of AA. Posters indignant. Took a deep breath and decided to address the issue politically and directly.
“I’ve been reading the posts here and wondering about ‘breaking the silence’. This is always a very difficult moment but I do know there will be many posters and lurkers who will be in the same position as myself. I grew up with an active padophile in my family. Until a great deal more is understood about the nature of the compulsion and the psycopathy involved, the focus will stay on therapising/treating the ‘victims’ and ‘survivors’ and nothing will change to in fact prevent the cycle of abuse. In my experience, paedophiles abuse in repetitive and ritualistic ways, mostly voyeuristic, triggered by the sight of pigtails or a child crying or the smell of urine. Being drunk or sober is irrelevant. The mental health status or age or distress of the child is irrelevant to them. Castration incidentally has to do with the genitalia and is inappropriate for sexual obsessions that take place in the mind. In my experience, the paedophile as father or uncle is deeply horrified and ashamed and revolted by his own bahaviour and makes desperate attempts to stay away from children between episodes of molestation; has very little insight into his own triggers and is terrified of asking for help because of the demoniization and criminal charges that will follow. Moral outrage changes nothing. Incest survivors need more than empathy or outrage expressed on our behalf, we want the cycle stopped.”