Viridian bristle as trees green up for spring. Letting dogs out in the small hours, into a garden misty with moonlight and raucous with tree frogs.
Eating home-cured green olives while watching baby housemartins learn to fly from the low stoep wall, gyrating their wings and shrieking with joy and terror.
The Great Dane has dandruff.
Reading poetry in the spring and crooning Whitman’s Out of the Cradle Endlessly Rocking to myself in the bath, along with a soapy rendition of Ezra Pound’s Cantico del Sole. Soaping myself with a supposedly ‘organic’ Grapefruit and Brazilian Orange body wash. So that I can rejuvenate the epidermis while smelling like a chemical fruit peel.
The great Abstract Expressionist Jackson Pollack wrote: “When I am in my painting, I’m not aware of what I’m doing. It’s only after a sort of ‘get acquainted’ period that I see what I have been about. I have no fears about making changes, destroying the image, etc., because the painting has a life of its own.”
That is what painting or writing a poem is all about in this brief lush greeny-blue spring. Cleaning brushes, mixing colours, scrubbing my palette, priming the canvas. And then doing what I don’t know I’m doing, splashing on colour and finding lines and white spaces and different colours, painting not thinking or knowing..
John Yau riffing on Pollock and painting like writing like becoming.
830 Fireplace Road
(Variations on a sentence by Jackson Pollack)
“When I am in my painting, I’m not aware of what I’m doing”
When aware of what I am in my painting, I’m not aware
When I am my painting, I’m not aware of what I am
When what, what when, what of, when in, I’m not painting my I
When painting, I am in what I’m doing, not doing what I am
When doing what I am, I’m not in my painting
When I am of my painting, I’m not aware of when, of what
Of what I’m doing, I am not aware, I’m painting
Of what, when, my, I, painting, in painting
When of, of what, in when, in what painting
Not aware, not in, not of, not doing, I’m in my I
In my am, not am in my, not of when I am, of what
Painting “what” when I am, of when I am, doing, painting.
When painting, I’m not doing. I am in my doing. I am painting.